Heavy thinking day...

When you have a very important decision to make, and you have been given a "few weeks" to decide, how do you distract yourself? I am currently trying television, and a program that I love. "The Closer", I had to start 4 times before I even was listening to it.

The question is this: my doctor has urged me to have a pump inplanted in my gut around to my spine that would give medication. I have argued about this surgery for years. The whole thing just makes me ill. This past weekend I spoke with someone who has recently (March) had it done, and that was helpful. But it also brought up some questions. YIKES!!!

So, chocolate has helped alot. I will not talk about how much I ate last week (down at my second house, my Aunt's in Richmond), but let's just say that the M&M business is making lots of money off my purchases. Books and magazines helped. I finished one book that was outstanding, and then had a few mags to keep up with. The computer helped ALOT. My addiction with Webkinz was fed big time. I was able to play with my little cousins (the ones that got me started), and I ended up showing some stuff to them that they had not found. Their Mom also told me that they only play with theirs when I am there. And that they wanted to come over early each day, not to see Nana or my Mom, they "just wanted to play with Tracey". That made me feel great.

I am leaning toward having this surgery, but man, I really dread it. But, enough of that. For those who wondered or emailed to check, my pelvis is not fully healed yet, and a big amount of the pain is gone.

It was driving me nuts not to be able to post here, but as is normal for me, I forgot my password. Had to re-set it, so now I am back.